Friday, December 21, 2018

2019 Goals


Resolutions are fun but do you know what's even better? Attainable goals!!!

Like every other human in the world, I've made the mistake of setting lofty goals and then forgetting all about them and/or giving up before the Christmas tree has even had the chance to die.

Here are the 5 things I know I can achieve in 2019!
  1. read 52 books
    1. 40 physical books
    2. 12 audiobooks
  2. quit biting my nails for once and for all
  3. get a manicure
  4. quit reading reviews on Goodreads! You don't agree with most people's opinions and tastes quit fooling yourself! I HATE going into a new book with other people's opinions swirling around in my brain, so I'm only going to use Goodreads for tracking my reading progress in 2019. 
  5. post on my blog at least once every 2 weeks. Not even for me to feel ~pressured~ but enough to force me to share little bits of my life and travels with y'all! As I talked about in my blogging in a bubble post, I want to 
I'm hanging out at my grandma's house a lot!
I can't really think of anything else! Who knows where I'll go in 2019, so all of my goals have to be location-independent. I'm honestly really happy with how I'm living my life and the direction I'm going in. Sorry if this sounds like a self-brag, but I spent so many years not being happy or content so I'm not going to be quiet about it now! I'm doing well with getting consistent exercise (20 minutes a day, no matter what!) and eating lots of fruit and vegetables (smoothies are key) and reading a lot and refusing to be ignorant about topics that I think are important (retirement, the stock market, global women's health, feminism, et al.). As long as I continue doing what I'm already doing in 2019, I'll be one fulfilled gal!

Cheers to 2019, y'all. Let's make it one filled with friends, books, and laughter. 





Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Every Book I Read in 2018: Part 1



I haven't posted in 3 months but who cares! (I wrote this intro back when I hadn't posted in 3 months, but I've posted twice since working on this post! Horray for improvement!) Maybe I should post about my 4.5 month backpacking trip around Europe where I went to some cool ass countries and met some really bombass people and had a great time. But why talk about any of that on my travel blog when I just tell you about every book I read and give you my unwarranted opinions about them? I'll tell you where I was when I was reading them to keeping things ~spicy~ and ~travel related~. And no there are no affiliate links because I'm too lazy for that and I don't care anymore anyways.

Back when my original reading goal was 50 books, I was just going to make this one long post. But since I've been home I've been reading a shitton (to give you a general idea of how much a "shitton" is: I read 20 books in a little over a month of being home) and right now I'm at 61 books and that's just TOO MUCH for anyone to read. So here are the first 35 books I read in 2018, and Part 2 will follow in the coming weeks.

Also, be my friend on Goodreads!

1. Tiny Beautiful Things by Cheryl Strayed
Read on my mom's couch after my wisdom teeth removal surgery. High on opioids and pissed off at the world because my FACE HURT. This book made me cry so hard and I highlighted so many quotes. I'd like to attribute the crying to the drugs and the mouth pain but honestly, it's probably because I'm a little bitch baby that cries easily at everything.

2. How Did You Get This Number by Sloane Crosley
Also read on my mom's couch. Not impressive. Move along.

3. Leia: Princess of Alderaan by Claudia Gray
Since I was doing all this reading on my mom's couch I felt like a 9-year-old again and decided to regress into my Star Wars phase. Except now I'm older and more Star Wars exists so there are more stories to read! How fun! They have Star Wars YA now! This was my second Claudia Gray book and it was enjoyable.

4. What Happened by Hillary Rodham Clinton [AUDIOBOOK]
Listened to in my car over winter break. I listened to most of this at the end of 2017 but it is VERY LONG and I only listened to it while in the car (because I'm an old lady that borrows audiobook CDs from the library) so I finished it in 2018. All you need to know is that I cried at many parts while listening to this book, dreaming of what we could have had.

5. Call Me By Your Name by Andre Aciman
Read in my college dorm, winter. I read this because I saw the movie and it rocked my world. I read the book so slowly because every sentence is beautiful and I didn't want it to end because I knew I'd never be able to read this book for the first time ever again.

6. Everything Everything by Nicole Yoon
Borrow from my friend Shannon, god bless her. I don't remember much about this book so that tells you all you need to know.

7. Committed by Elizabeth Gilbert
Mainly read on my couch in my dorm. SOOOOOOOOOOOO good! The institution of marriage is fascinating and scary.

8. A Streetcar Named Desire by Tennessee Williams
Read for my Southern American Literature course. Very gay and southern. Loved it.

9. All the Single Ladies by Rebecca Traister
Read in my bed. Committed put me in a very feministy-nonfiction mood. It dragged at points but had so many good facts you should definitely read it.

10. Where'd You Go Bernadette by Maria Semple
Read on the beach in Grenada (the island in the Carribean, not Spain) because I'm fancy sometimes. Very good and very smart, I'd like to read more like this.

11. Slouching Towards Bethlehem by Joan Didion
Started to read in Grenada, finished in Virginia. I liked it but Didion is too smart for me.

12. Brokeback Mountain by Annie Proulx
Read in bed at home after graduation. I cried! Shocker!

13. William Shakespeare: The World as Stage by Bill Bryson [AUDIOBOOK]
Mainly listened to while cleaning my room. I learned lots of things but can't remember any of it.

14. Dress Codes for Small Towns by Courtney C. Stevens
Read in my room (don't worry soon I will be traveling and my reading locations with be a lot more fun). It's about teens in youth group in a small southern town and there's stuff about sexuality and growing up and Christianity and I LOVED it.

15. The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian by Sherman Alexie
Read in one day on the porch of my grandparent's river house. It was good and important but should be read in middle school or early high school.

16. Dear Ijeawele, or a Feminist Manifesto in Fifteen Suggestions by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
Also read in one day on the porch of my grandparent's river house. Would be a good gift to a teenager or a new mom (if you know she's into that kind of stuff, of course).

17. The Idiot by Elif Batuman
Started reading in Grenada, read more in my dorm room, finished in my room after I moved back home. It took me so long to read because I didn't want it to end! It's one of those books that doesn't have an OBVIOUS point but I loved it. I want more books about smart girls traveling and making mistakes and not really learning from them.

18. Love Warrior by Glennon Doyle Melton [AUDIOBOOK]
Listened to in my room as I cleaned everything out in preparation for my Europe trip. Didn't enjoy much about this audiobook, but I like how honest she is. And man, she is honest.

19. A Walk in the Woods by Bill Bryson [AUDIOBOOK]
Listened to driving up and down I-95 to go to my in-class portion of my TEFL course. I've decided that I'm never going to walk the whole of the AT (Appalachian Trail) so I might as well listen to the accounts of people that tried. Bill Bryson is easy to listen to and knows how to weave a story, except there was this whole portion where he talked smack about a solo female hiker for no reason. She has more balls than you do, Bill.

20. Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng [AUDIOBOOK]
Finally, my books and I are in Europe! Listened to while cleaning the kitchen of the hostel I worked at in Slovakia. For some reason, I thought this would be a fun YA book with a dash of murder, but it's way more serious than that. A good look at race and family dynamics.

21. Carol (Price of Salt) by Patricia Highsmith [AUDIOBOOK]
Listened to while cleaning the kitchen and just sitting in my room, taking a break from socializing. It's read by the same narrator as Everything I Never Told You and I liked her voice. A bit slow for an audiobook but the writing is beautiful.

22. Hunger: A Memoir of My Body by Roxane Gay [AUDIOBOOK]
Listening while trying to hold my bladder on really bumpy minivan rides in Moldova. Gay narrates this herself and it is very good and important and everyone should read it.

23. The Garden Party and Other Stories by Katherine Mansfield
Read in Romania. As far as "classics" go Mansfield is a bit easier to read, although I have to be in a particular mood for her. Which is why it took me so long to read such a slim book! Passed it on to an English guy from Bradford.

24. An Appeal to the World: The Way to Peace in a Time of Division by Dalai Lama XIV
Read on a park bench in Varna, Bulgaria. I've never read the Dalai Lama before but man is he quotable.

25.  Living History by Hillary Rodham Clinton [AUDIOBOOK]
Listened to while walking around Bulgarian towns. This was the perfect book to read since Clinton was the First Lady while the Clinton Administration was involved with eastern Europe and the former Yugoslavia region, which happened to be where I was traveling.

26. Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason by Helen Fielding
Bought from a secondhand bookshop in Varna, run by a kind and scatterbrained American lady. I love the Bridget Jones series so much and if I ever get a PhD in Literature I can easily write a whole paper on how genius Bridget Jones is. You may think it's a fun bit of Pride & Prejudice fluff, but think a lil bit harder.

27. Origin by Dan Brown
Read in Veliko Tarnovo, Bulgaria. A quick read. Dan Brown is alright.

28. Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi
Started in Plovdiv, finished by the time I reached Sofia. The fun thing about hostel bookshelves is that all of the books that were big last year trickle their way into circulation. I loved this one so much. I love a well-done generational story. This one really helps you realize how trauma can be passed down from generation to generation.

29. Erotic Stories for Punjabi Widows by Balli Kaur Jaswal [AUDIOBOOK]
Listened to while walking around Plovdiv, Bulgaria. I 100% recommend that you only listen to this as an audiobook. The voice actor does such a great job and this is the first fiction audiobook that I was actually excited to listen to every day.

30. The Roanoke Girls by Amy Engel
Found on a bus in Scotland, read in London. It was very twisted and not well written but it was a quick read. Could've been great if written by someone else.

31. The Vegetarian by Han Kang
Read in Marusici, Croatia. Very literary and probably too smart for me. It was interesting but I couldn't figure out the purpose of it all.

32. Exit West by Mohsin Hamid
Picked up in Trebinje, Bosnia, I think. Honestly can't remember where I was when I read this. I can see why lots of people like this book but I really do not like Hamid's writing style.

33. The Wrong Knickers: A Decade of Chaos by Byrony Gordon
Read on the bus in Albania. A fun book title for people to see you reading in public! I enjoy women writing about their lives, no matter how privileged and whiny their life can be, but ugh. This one could've been good but ends with a dude saving her at the end. Gag me with a spoon.

34. Rivers of London by Ben Aaronovitch
Read in Tirana, Albania. Really loved this one! Aaronovitch has an interesting voice and there's a lot of actual history in this book. My only problem is that his female characters are really flat and only seen as a pair of tits to the main character. I'll see if this improves in his later books.

35. Leah on the Offbeat by Becky Albertalli
Read in Himare, Albania. I didn't read the book Simon vs. the Homospaien Agenda but I saw the movie Love, Simon and loved it and this was the only book on the hostel shelf in English so I gave it a whirl. It was GREAT! The characters aren't perfect and they make mistakes and it's just a fun YA read!

And there you have it! Stay tuned for Part 2 to find out what books I ended by 4.5 month backpacking trip with and see what I've read since I've been home.

Have a good day, and go read a book!

Thursday, December 6, 2018

blogging in a bubble

Kalambaka, Greece

I want to write more.

I want to have a record of my life that's a bit more polished and has a few more pictures than my journal (which has zero polish and zero pictures because journaling nicely takes EFFORT, man).

Which means I need to blog more.

And in order to blog more, I need to quit caring. I need to quit worrying about the hyper-judgemental reader in my mind that is just so MEAN and thinks everything I do and say is DUMB and frivolous and no one CARES what this overly opinionated, oversharing girl from America cares about anything, anyways. Obviously, I don't think any of those things about myself, but that mean person reading this from their dirty computer in their dim living room (mean people never have bright living rooms) thinks all those things about me and more. How rude.

But I NEED to quit focusing on the opinions of this person that does not exist. I never post when I'm focusing on that critical, faceless person, hence my sporadic and spare blogging.

The only person that matters is 40, 50, 60 year old me looking back on the tales of her youth. I need to write for old lady me. She's probably really cute and likes a good story.

So here I am, writing short posts about my day to day life and travels and not giving a damn about any other reader but my future self.

Onwards!